I’m sorry I haven’t written in a while. It’s been a busy and chaotic time for me. Today is the first real day off in a while where I knew there was no chance I would be called into work. I told them they better not. It is my birthday and I refuse to work today.
Needless to say that with all of this extra work that I have not been eating properly or doing anything else properly either. I have been working and sleeping and that has been about it. It doesn’t make for a happy or healthy person. It also makes you (me) feel not only physically drained, but drained mentally. I don’t have a significant other to come home to so I internalize a lot of these feelings. Thankfully my best friend does listen but I don’t want to throw too much of my shit at her. She has enough of her own shit. She has been my rock, though. She listens and cares and bought me jellybeans for my birthday. I know they’re not healthy but I don’t eat them constantly. They’re that nice little bite of goodness when I need something sweet. They’re the generics of Jelly Belly beans and I love them.
As I mentioned, today is my birthday. It is my new year. Because of that, I got to thinking along the lines of resolutions. I try to not go hard-core with resolutions. That leads me to feeling bad about myself if/when I fail. What do I want to accomplish in 2013? I want to be happier, healthier, laugh more, less stress, lose weight, feel better, etc. I think losing weight will lead to a lot of this. I am not saying losing weight is the key to every problem I have, but I do believe it would help me in many aspects of life. I am going to have to start committing to it more deeply, though.
Food is a problem. The way I have had to work it is hard to cook. I may just have to buy frozen individual servings of veggies and maybe buy a rotisserie chicken or 2 during the week and warm them for dinners at work. That wouldn’t be too terrible calorie-wise I suppose. I welcome suggestions. It is hard because I don’t have much time to cook and I only have microwave at work.
I hope you are all well. I am going to try to do better about writing. I have just been slammed at work.