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The year started out well but then things went terribly wrong. I no longer have a wonderful boyfriend. For a bit I was doing well to eat. Then I was eating terribly. I am back on track. It’s not easy. I’m still grieving the loss of the relationship and there are days I want to let Ben & Jerry’s soothe me. But I’m not doing it

I have lost 80 lbs at this point. I am very lucky that I have a really supportive workplace. That is helping. I am focusing on work and trying to just keep my life together. I have to start walking more. I want to get to my goal faster. I want to throw it in his face. Yes, I am losing weight for myself, but it doesn’t hurt that he already thought I was beautiful. Wait til I show how damn beautiful I can be. I’m ready to keep moving!

Watch out world! Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.


June 23, 2015

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Today was a great day as far as weight loss goes. I am back on track and lost another 2.2 lbs. I am finally at the lowest weight I have been in 7 years. Amazing how life and stress can weigh so heavily upon you. I let life get to me in a physical manifestation. Now I am ready to shed that. I am tired of being a percentage of the person I can and should be. I feel good about what I am doing finally.


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It has been a crazy day. I am exhausted. I walked over 3 miles today. My knee is killing me. You would think today was a crap day. And it was in some ways. But it was also not so crappy in others. I thought I had gained this week. I lost 2/10 of a lb. I know that is mere ounces. But the fact is that it is a LOSS and I’ll take that and be happy.

Today’s loss lifted my spirits significantly. I have been struggling the last week or so emotionally. I miss my Mama. The anniversary of her death was last week. Last week was also the birthday of the woman who treated me as her own after I lost everything. I lost her in the fall. This week has just been rough. Then Father’s Day coming up. I hate this time of year.

Am I going to let all these emotions and feelings stop me? No. I can’t. I want to outlive my mother. I am getting closer to the age she died and it’s scary. I have 4.5 years before I am the age she was when she died. I haven’t truly lived. I don’t want to die without some living. So I am working towards living again. It’s not easy. When you let life get you down for so long, after a while you just quit fighting. I did for a long time. Now I’m fighting like crazy to overcome that.

If you don’t mind, say a little prayer for me. I would love to have something wonderfully good and significant happen.

Hope you’re having a good week.

April 10, 2014

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I am a slacker. I admit it. I haven’t been writing here because I have tried to balance everything. It’s not been working so well. The one good thing recently is that I’ve tried to get back on the wagon with healthier eating. Yay me? Yeah, I fell off. It was a hard landing. I was working crazy hours. I wasn’t sleeping well. I wasn’t eating well. I was just functioning. Now I am trying to just get back on track. I have moved towards eating healthier. I have quit eating out so much. I was eating out all the time because it is hard to cook when you have less than 12 hours at home before you have to be back at work. I just wanted food immediately and sleep. Then I wasn’t sleeping well because of the food. Ugh! So I have started cooking up big batches of rice and veggies so I have these meals ready to microwave. It’s easier and more affordable. And tastier! I cook a helluva lot better than McDonalds!

I was also recently inspired by a friend who told me he lost 15 lbs. I was impressed. So I figured if he can, I can get back to it! I’m doing my shakes and eating better and feeling better slowly. It’s not the easiest road. Most of us know that. But it is a process.

August 24, 2013

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I just got through with vacation and it was amazing. I was busy! But it was so nice to have ME-TIME! Ya know? My eating did get off track some. Doesn’t everyone’s on vacay? I am getting back on a schedule and back to the way it should be. It’s funny. I prefer being on a schedule with my food. It sounds a little nuts. As much as I hate being back at work and back to the daily grind, I don’t mind being back to food schedule at all. I feel better that way. So I am trying to just do better and get totally focused again.

Yes, I have been doing my Juice Plus. I have done well enough that I am now listed as Direct Distributor. Not a big title or anything, but it meant something to me. I really want to help others with their health. I know the slightest improvement can make a huge difference! And I am not even just talking using Juice Plus. I mean, when you make a change, you FEEL it! I feel the difference. I feel different. Then I act differently!

It is amazing. It truly amazes me how big of a snowball effect it all really is. Ya know? When one thing is off, the rest just follows. When I was depressed and feeling like shit, it affected the rest of my life and really caused some problems. The weight went up. The depression worsened. I felt worse about myself. I didn’t want to do anything. So on and so forth. It gets to be a pattern. There comes a point where we have to find something that breaks it. If not, we’re going to live miserably. I don’t think God put us here to be miserable all the time. I just don’t believe He is that kind of God. We can make ourselves miserable. We can allow life to get us. And believe me! I know how easy it is. I have had so many crappy things happen to me that I could write an album/cd of country songs. I just had to finally say that it was in the past and figure out a way to live the life I want.

I am nowhere near where I want to be. But I’m a lot closer than I was before! That’s progress! And that is how you have to live. Intentionally.

August 5, 2013

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Oh how I’ve missed blogging! Work has kept me busy. It seems we have a ton of trainees and that’s nuts. Good, though. Also last week I was on call and of course third shift called out, which meant I was stranded! Thank God for Juice Plus! Love my COMPLETE shakes! They got me through a rough night for sure! My all time favorite is the strawberry smoothie.  So delicious and healthy and tastes sinful! YUM! just in case you’re interested, you can buy the shake mix or capsules or gummies with full day’s worth of fruits and veggies at

I’m hoping and praying for some vacation soon. I am in desperate need of it. I need a break. I’ve been stressed. Ine thing I’m trying to do, though,  daily is rest and just be me. I am finally tired of the world telling me how to behave all the time. I know how to behave mostly. And sometimes I need to misbehave.

Hope everyone is well! I’m TIRED!

Sacrifice Is Necessary

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It amazes me that people say they want to lose weight and refuse to do anything to make it happen. It is like saying the words are enough. If that was true, everyone would be skinny. Who doesn’t want to be a healthy weight?

What makes me ask this? A woman at work told me she was interested in the shakes I do and asked how to make them. I explained that I mix the powder with soy milk and then blend with frozen strawberries and Truvia. Her first response was “Ewww! Soy milk! I can’t do that.” I asked her if she had ever tried it and her answer was no. So  I then asked how she could say she didn’t like it if she’d never had it. That didn’t make sense to me.

Here’s the deal, people, if you want to lose weight, you are going to have to make changes. You gained weight because of how you are currently eating. You cannot expect to lose weight eating the same way. It’s not logical. I’m sorry if that offends you. Sacrifice is necessary. You cannot eat biscuits and burgers and expect to lose weight. It is not going to happen. If you have one now and then, that is a different story. But daily? Give me a break. And also quit trying to lie to yourself and say it is possible. It’s not. Most of us are intelligent enough to know this so why people act so shocked by this news astounds me.

Sacrifice is necessary! It is that simple. Start giving up something every day if you have to do it that way. Start adding in something positive. Add more veggies and take out fatty foods. Quit saying you can’t do something if you have never tried it. Quit saying EEWWWW when you have no clue about what something tastes like. For the record, that is something that drives me nuts, especially in adults. Don’t act like you will die if you taste something. You know that the flavor will not kill you. Suck it up, buttercup! Taste it and then make a decision. Quit acting like a baby!

If you want something bad enough, you’ll try for it.