I am and have been out of control lately. I can’t stop eating. I don’t say it lightly. It is the truth. I feel ashamed to say it and I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me. I have considered Overeaters Anonymous in the past but with my crazy schedule it is so hard. I think I am going to try an online meeting. Maybe that would help in some way? I don’t know. I feel such frustration, anger, confusion, and just so many other feelings I can’t even describe.
What was my downfall lately? Waffles. I just wanted a frozen waffle. I haven’t had one in forever so I got a pack. And I ate and kept eating. And they were so good. And I was so full. And it didn’t stop me from eating. And what the hell kinda person eats when they’re full? I was not hungry!
It really reinforced the fact that I cannot keep certain kinds of foods in the house. If it ain’t healthy, it ain’t staying in the house! It’s like I can’t stand it. I have to have it! There’s yogurt here. Did I eat that like crazy? No. But waffles? Oh hell yeah!
Anyway, I don’t want or need sympathy. I just wanted to write out my feelings. This was on my mind. I have a headache from thinking about it. I have been having migraines lately and I need to rest now. I hope you have a better day than I have been.
- Living On the Vine, Not In the Whine! (tljax.wordpress.com)