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August 26, 2012

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It has been a horrible week. My emotions have been all over the place as has been my eating. I have been a wreck. Some of it my fault. Some of it not. And my body responded to the stress violently.

It is amazing to me how stress can make your body go into fits almost. I was stressed and it caused chaos within me in ways I had forgotten possible. Pain coursed through me as well as nausea and other tummy issues that I will not post about. (I am sure that was enough to give you a good enough idea, right?) I had near-migraine level headaches even though I take prophylactic medication for migraine prevention.

On top of that I have been on-call at work. Then someone was let go. Sounds so much better than fired. Whatever you wanna call it, we had to cover hours creatively. So while all of this was going on I worked an 11 hour day while sick as a dog (in Southern speak that is DAWG). I did this on no sleep in 36 hours and drinking 2 of the Starbucks energy drinks. I do not recommend those in a 6 hour period because they caused more tummy issues, which if you got the gist of what I was saying, didn’t taste good the 2nd time around.

So today is Sunday, which is really my Friday. I ordered spaghetti and meatballs from one of my favorite places. I don’t give a damn how many calories are in them. I am eating until I am full and sleepy. I am going to watch a movie. And I am going to rest. Thank you, Netflix, for streaming through my Roku!


August 22, 2012

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Damn! Damn! Damn! I like healthy food. I really do. I don’t know why I can’t understand why an intelligent person can’t get it together. I don’t plan. I know this. And I want my food to be fast. I need something quick, easy, healthy and delicious. Why is it so hard? Is it that hard? Or is it just me?

I don’t even have anything fun to say right now. I am tired. Maybe that’s why I’m such a crab-ass right now. Maybe.

August 18, 2012

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I am hanging my fingers in shame as I type this. I was terrible last night. ūüė¶ I had pizza. And it wasn’t just a little bit either. I don’t know why I was so hungry, but I was starving! And I was really hungry, too! I took a break from eating to wait and see if I was still hungry and I was! So I ate another piece! I did realize something later, though. After eating pizza I seem to retain fluid. I guess all that saltiness does it. At least all this conscientiousness is making me realize certain things. I am learning more about myself through all of this.

I am also trying to not eat so emotionally. How hard that is! I have been a ball of emotions lately! I have had a lot of things and people on my mind that affect me. Usually that sends me into the pantry. Not so much this week. I eat and am done. If I start craving something I ask myself if it is time to eat and if I’m really hungry. If I just don’t know, which is really the case sometimes, I drink water. Sometimes that will fix the problem.

And btw, have you ever noticed that sometimes you don’t know if you are hungry or thirsty? At least I don’t. I think I get confused because for so long I have eaten when thirsty and I have my whole body thrown out of whack. So there is part of the journal and a tip! If you are just a little hungry, drink some water and see if you are really hungry or not. If you are hungry, you’re still going to be hungry after that water.

OK, it is time to work. And no, I don’t want to go. But I have two days off after this. Thank God! I am in need of it! My three days off last week were heaven and made me want MORE!

August 16, 2012

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I had some time off from work which helped relax me a little. I made a little headway in the house. It was just so nice to breathe and not worry about dealing with anything but my own stuff. I got to visit with friends. All of this was quite refreshing. I was able to clear my head quite a bit.

During this time I found something wonderful to eat that is quite healthy and delicious. Flatout flatbread makes a wonderful rosemary olive oil  bread that I am in love with! That with a smidge of mayo, mesquite turkey, mozzarella, and lots of lettuce, carrots, etc. and it is heaven!

Not much else going on. I am sleepy. I have started my vitamins but they haven’t taken away my sleepiness/dragginess yet. I am trying to fight it, though. ¬†It is my bedtime now, though. Have a great day!

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Doesn’t this sound good?

Battling The Bulge On A Budget

2 pounds beefstew meat, (such as chuck), trimmed and cubed

2 teaspoons caraway seeds

1 1/2-2 tablespoons sweet or hot paprika, (or a mixture of the two), preferably Hungarian (see Ingredient Note)

1/4 teaspoon salt

Freshly ground pepper, to taste

1 large or 2 medium onions, chopped

1 small red bell pepper, chopped

1 14-ounce can diced tomatoes

1 14-ounce can reduced-sodium beef broth

1 teaspoon Worcestershire sauce

3 cloves garlic, minced

2 bay leaves

1 tablespoon cornstarch mixed with 2 tablespoons water

2 tablespoons chopped fresh parsley


Place beef in a 4-quart or larger slow cooker. Crush caraway seeds with the bottom of a saucepan. Transfer to a small bowl and stir in paprika, salt and pepper. Sprinkle the beef with the spice mixture and toss to coat well. Top with onion and bell pepper.

Combine tomatoes, broth, Worcestershire sauce and garlic in a medium…

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August 12, 2012

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I have been thinking that my dirty house is one of the links to my weight loss issues. And I have been putting it off because it is just overwhelming. I have been just so busy that I have let things go in every aspect.

Well, today….whew! I have been BUSY! I am on a break. I have been lifting moving, cleaning, throwing out, etc. (BTW, does this count as some exercise cause I am tired?!) I still have tons to do. And I do mean tons! But I have made a dent. I am proud of myself. Anything you want to accomplish requires a first step, right? So I have been taking some steps.

I also got Roku and put it downstairs. I know it provides a means to sit on my ass and veg out. Yes, it does. But there is another reason. I was just kinda holing up sometimes and focusing only on the computer because it is my way of watching things. I don’t have cable but I do watch things online. With Roku, this fixes things. I won’t be so tied to the computer. Yes, I’m using it now. And, yes, I will probably use it a lot. I love my computer and things I can do. But I can move more freely and do things and hear noise as I am doing it! When you are single, you need noise. I mean, my cats make noise. Don’t get me wrong. But I like to hear background noise. It is helpful to me.

So, I feel like today has been a very successful. I still have a lot to do. But I thought I would write how positive I was feeling about things. It’s nice to feel positive.

August 11, 2012

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I was inspired this morning. I went to the store to get some things. I saw this elderly couple walking in the parking lot. They were exercising. I felt guilty. I also felt inspired. The lady was using a cane. But she was walking! It was something to see. It made me smile.

I did start moving more at work. My coworker and I are encouraging each other. Especially when we are tired. We’re like MOVE NOW! It’s helpful. She didn’t realize how much work I was doing last night and was encouraging me to walk around. I couldn’t because I had tons of paperwork to finish. But I did jump up when I could. So we are moving lots more. It’s helping.

I also bought my multivitamins. I take my B12 and D but I need regular old multivitamins as well. So I got those at the dollar store. I compared them to the fancy-schmancy name brand and they’re close enough!