I have been so stressed. It seems like everything is causing me stress. I am not sleeping right. I am working third shift. I am not cooking. I stop and pick up something on the way to work at the grocery store such as sandwiches or just get junk at a fast food place. I know this isn’t good.
This is a goal for me: get some semblance of control of my life. I think the lack of control over every aspect spins me out of control. It’s frustrating and I just feel so overwhelmed. Then I don’t know which way to turn to get it under control. I have decided to TRY to start working on one aspect of life. I suppose that should be my house.
My house looks like an episode of Hoarders. Why? I am too tired and overwhelmed at times to deal with it. I got this way due to depression. I am working on getting over the depression. But the house is pretty depressing now. So I am gonna try to do a little daily until it is done. I want to look around and be inspired. I’m not inspired right now. So we gotta fix that!
I suppose I wish I just wanna wave a magic wand. I do wish I could do that over every aspect of my life. Wouldn’t that be great? Poof! Everything is fixed! Yeah, right. Everything takes time. I’m having to take control of life again. I am having to learn how to actually live again. I lost myself through the years. I forgot how to be me. I have to learn how to eat right. I have to learn a lot. It makes me sad. It seems like everyone else has their shit together and I am struggling. It is frustrating.
- Emotions and Depression (psychologytoday.com)